Wandering Ghost

...........Don't you know me at all!

If you've seen the movie "Great Expectations"; you'd know this is what he said to her when she asked to be forgiven for breaking his heart.

Sometimes.... desires are like cars. You take a ride and you want it to go somewhere. But often enough the destinations keep moving. Sometimes, the faster and harder we drive, farther the destination goes.

So many times I had envisioned this. And they say when you really want something that bad, it happens. I now look back and realise that I already passed that crossroad. And I didn't even realise!!!! Blinded goddamn fool that I am.

Chasing a desire is so painful at times, esp when you realise that the distance has only been increasing instead of the opposite. And still I keep going, tirelessly. Hope - what a funny word and what it can do to you.

I stand today, laughing at myself for being the illogical fool who would run from crossroad to crossroad until one day, I turn into a ghost that has gone all over the place and found no resting ground.

While I sit here laughing at that idiot inside, I feel a little affection too. Fools are forgiven and then loved. That's what I do to that ghost inside that won't listen to my reasons coz its heart can't be put back together.