The need for silence is immense. It is met. Friends, family, work, God .... they all seems to be standing on the other side of this fine line that seems to be around me. I am a little too aware of the pace and the change around me. A blur would be preferred. You know when you blink and something is different. There appears to be doorways inside myself that I seem to cross while changing gears to adjust my pace. I can walk inside to myself. Its a bit lonely there you know. But then its the same outside. I am neither the hero of my life nor the victim. I have not won any war nor have I been tormented by injustice. I am not seeking fame nor am I dying of anonymity.
I am truly an ordinary atom in the universe. I see that as a good thing.
But sometimes I want to escape myself and my mind. And thats not good. I want to see but not observe and thats not good. I want to be alone without being lonely.